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My Journaling reads:


Dear Mal, It’s so hard to find the words- still, 16 years later. I still get choked up. I always dream about what kind of woman, 25 year old woman, you’d be today. Would you have children of your own? And where would you live? What would you like to do or what kind of job would you have? How different my life could be if you were still here! What would you look like now? Beautiful, I am sure. Sometimes I see you in Joleigh, in her small features. Others see it too. And then I wish all the more you were here to be Aunt Mal. That my kids knew you and that the day wasn’t coming that I’d tell them they should have another aunt. I think these things almost daily. I miss you and haven’t forgotten. I never will. I still love you so very much. I believe God has a plan in all this pain- I may never know what it is or fully understand but I trust -and hope. -and pray. It’s all I know to do. I keep believing. and moving. and breathing. one day at a time. and it gets easier. but I don’t forget. ever. How I feel about you. The things we did. or shouldn’t have done. or should have done. I hope I’m making you proud down here. See you again, some sweet day. on the other side. Love Always, your sis