Very sweet heart felt journaling. So sorry you have had to go through this 4 times. I have only been through it once 17 years ago and it still hits me once in a while. I just have to trust that God has a bigger plan for the baby I never met. I hope that someday I will know what that plan is.
This journalling seems to be telling part of my story too. Having lost 2 of my own, I've felt so many of the same things. I always wonder what it would have been like if both of my angels would have been born healthy and happy and what type of people they would be growing up to be. I am so thankful to have my 2 healthy babies whom I love more than anything but I still miss the other 2 so much.
Amazing and heartfelt layout Helen! Big Hugs coming your way!