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TEmplate: Seeing Doubles 3 from Connie Prince
From Friday night when we found out that Ghabe’s knee pain was really an infection, I have not felt good. I have felt no sense of control; I have felt scared; I have felt alone; I have felt guilty. But today, finally I feel like there is some hope. That this will all be fine and we will go back to normal. Before that can happen, however, we have a month of non normal-ness to contend with. We can go home from the hospital tomorrow, but we go home with a PICC line in Ghabe’s arm and a whole month of meds to be given every 8 hours each day for 4 weeks. Even that was a source of anxiety for me because it’s new and I’ve never done it or seen it done. After spending 1/2 hour with the lady, I feel like I can get it done fairly easily. Plus, they will send someone to our house tomorrow to re-teach me and to teach Cainan who will have to do a few of the doses. It’s still a little nerve-wracking because of the chance of infection or pulling it out. But, I even know what to do at that point. So, today, finally today, I feel brave enough to take on this new 4 week long adventure and we can get this boy all healed up and back to a normal life!