There are million thoughts flying up my mind and just don’t know how to put them into a words
I have been dealing with depression since the day he left.
Because no one ever told me there would be a day in which dad needed me and I just simply couldn't do anything.
I did assit him to do the CPR. I was in shock at the moment as in a couple of minutes dad was gone in my arms.
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Journal reads:
A silent moment. A deep breath.
Since the day you’ve left, my heart broke into million pieces. And I try so hard to remember you because there’s a fear of mine of forgetting you one day, and, honestly, I don’t want that to happen.
Your voice. Your smell. Your warmth.
I have always admired you and loved you.
You mean the whole world to me. The day you’ve left, I did not only lose you, but my best friend, the person that knows me more that anyone in this world, my therapist, my first teacher in life. Thanks to you I am who I am.
Daddy, you were one of a kind. My superheroe. My everything.
Love you always.
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GingerBread Ladies: Dapper
Back in 2016 I made a page about my dad using this kit as my dad's fave colors are black and gold. He loved it so much. Dad always supported this hobby of mine. I had a long 2 year break from this digiworld, now I am using it as my source of comfort and creativity and therapy.
Splatters from GBL Making Memories
Arrow and button from GBL Stick to it
